Sunday, April 13, 2014

Why, God?

Why, God?

     The husband of a friend of mine is dying of cancer. He received the news only five months ago, on his 56th birthday. Yesterday another friend of mine buried his 42-year-old daughter, another cancer victim. Last Friday I played the funeral of a 47-year-old man who died in his sleep, found by his mother, with whom he lived. In the meantime I read about three other friends who had relatives in their 40s and 50s who died of cancer.
     I know this seems like a macabre way to start a post, but this is part of reality. Yet why does God, so loving, so merciful, allow sickness to happen? I know that this is really the same question asked about evil, particularly when 9/11 and the Asian tsunami occurred. And, more importantly, why can’t we as human beings comprehend the “why”?


God Only Knows . . .

     “God only knows,
     God makes his plan,
     the information’s unavailable
     to the mortal man.”

     That’s a lyric that always made an impression on me, from Paul Simon’s Slip Slidin’ Away. Very poignant indeed, but it doesn’t tell the whole story (not that we can ever know the whole story this side of heaven). And as poignant as this lyric is, it does give the impression that God is somehow cold and insensitive, when nothing could be farther from the truth.
     I remember another case several years ago when a man in his 50s died of cancer, never knowing he was ill until it was too late. He asked his friend, a deacon, “Why me?”. His response: “I don’t know, it’s all part of God’s plan.” What??? Part of God’s plan??? If we know that God is a loving parent, and that his love is mirrored in many things, especially the love of a parent for their child, how is it even theologically conceivable that someone’s illness would be part of God’s plan?
     Let’s remember that this earth is not heaven, and creation is not yet finished. And as long as the kingdom of God has not yet been established on earth, imperfections are going to exist, and among them illness. Let’s not, however, assume that God inflicts illness on his children any more than God inflicts any other kind of malady on us so that he can swoop in and be the hero in the end. But didn’t God inflict punishments in scripture? Well, that may be true, but we do not know if these things are historical accuracies or theological witnesses. Remember, the purpose of scripture is salvation, not science.


Is God Even Listening?

     What about all those prayers that are never answered? Surely those parents who buried their children, as I described above, prayed and prayed that their children would not die, and yet their prayers went seemingly unanswered. Where was God? Is God deaf? Is the divine plan so etched in stone that God’s heart is impenetrable? Does God even care?
     It is human to ask these questions, even to shout them at God. But here’s a little-accepted fact: God hears and answers every prayer, just sometimes the answer is “no” or “not yet”. Does that mean God doesn’t care when a mother loses her child? On the contrary. Psalm 116 tells us that “Precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of his faithful one.”. Every time someone dies, the first heart to break is God’s. You who are parents, and who have more than one child: Aren’t you capable of laughing with one child and yet crying with another all at the same time? Our God can do that with every one of his children, for God can see every one of his created ones at once. I remember (then-Archbishop) Theodore McCarrick once preach in a homily, “God loves you so much, he can’t take his eyes off you.”. What beautiful words, and how beautifully it speaks of our importance in the heart of God.
     St. Peter tells us that, to God, one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years are as one day. God knows no human time, for to God all time is present, a mystery we cannot understand in this life. This truth may explain why we sometimes get a “no” to our prayers and petitions to God. We can see only our little slice of history and environment, while God sees it all. Every choice we make is like a pebble dropped in a pond, whose ripples go out in concentric circles. The nearer to the center, the more intense the ripple, and so forth. In other words, every choice we make affects and influences others in our life. Our choices may influence others to make certain other choices, and so on and so on. Who knows how far into history our own choices may influence people? Well, God knows.


The Hymnbook of Israel

     One of my favorite books of the bible is the book of Psalms. As a pastoral musician, the psalms are close to my heart, for they are part of every liturgy we celebrate. The psalms, it is said, are the hymnbook of Israel, but what makes them so dear to me is the fact that Jesus himself sang these hymns in his life as a faithful Jew. And within the span of these 150 psalms are found every human emotion, from joy to despair, and there are many examples wherein the psalmist blames God and even makes deals with God. In other words, the psalms are rich in addressing nearly every facet of human existence, and can offer support and clarity in every earthly situation.
     So when we find ourselves asking, “Why, God?”, just remember that Jesus himself asked that from the cross, as he quoted Psalm 22: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”.

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